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Oh Hal, that sucks. Very sorry to hear about this. It's gotta suck havin this strike again after a long period of not.

add my big hugs to the collective.


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quote:
Originally posted by Punkyfins:
Hal:
I've been thinking and thinking about this. How can one deal with the spiral? How do i deal with it? How do i get out of the times when i feel like a rabbit in headlights unable to breathe, much less move?

And the only thing i can come up with, is probably the lamest advice ever. But for what it's worth here it is:

Start somewhere. Anywhere.
Make a deal with yourself about something, anything. Whether it be writing a diary, having lunch every day, finding some structure in going to bed/getting up. As specific as you can make it. (So not 'get more structure' but, for instance, 'at 14:00 make lunch')
Write it down. One thing or two at a time. And then do it.
Don't think.

What's helped me the most is the 'don't think' bit. Get up off the chair/couch/out of bed and go to the shower and shower. Don't think about it. Don't think 'I should' or 'I can't'. Then put your clothes on. Then (if you have something written down) go to the next one. Get lunch or read or whatever you've promised yourself.

Don't expect too much and don't get ambitious. Just get through the days doing the little things you wrote down.
Add one whenever you feel like you can handle it.

This sounds utterly dumb. But i've seriously thought it over and this is the one concrete thing i can tell you that has helped me get through the bad patches. I've decided to post it, because, however it sounds, maybe it can help someone a little.

Lots of luck, ~*healthvibes*~ and *hugs*.


I just had to bump this to the new page. Thanks, Fins, this is really helpful for me whenever I start stumbling. I may not be suicidal right now but I start dragging and not taking care of myself. This is what helps -- intervening and changing my direction.

Lots of love and hugs and vibes to all who are struggling.


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(thanks and hugs guys.)


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Ach, apologies for a possibly long rant. Which may be riddled wiht typos and horrible grammar because I just had a seizure.

But these seizures, they are horrible. They make me feel just horrible. And possibly the worst part is that I'm conscious during them. Also, I've now been told by some people that since they are temporal lobe and not grand mal, apparently they're 'not that bad.' They are actually bad. I can't talk when I have them, and I come to in a confused state feeling emotional for no reason. It feels like being awake in some kind of nightmare. I can't control my emotions in this state, and I feel really depressed. I just feel like crying. And it's times like this I wish I didn't live alone, because I'm pretty useless in this state. Well, I'm pretty useless normally now too... I can't cook anymore because the open flame, I shouldn't swim by myself, I just feel pathetic. And there's this horrid panic/depression that comes on after the seizure that just doesn't leave for hours. It's there now, and it's just so overwhelming. And worse, it seems to bring out flashbacks too. And I feel sick and in a great deal of pain too, which doesn't help.

I hate posting this, but I just need to vent or something. I'm just so fucking depressed and scared. Just scared. There's nobody here. The friends I tried to talk to just sort of figured it's not that big of deal since I could talk still during it. I don't have family I can turn to. And it's made worse when all the stuff I read about epilepsy and the nurses at the hospital say to have family there who can help and support you during everything. I don't have that. I NEVER had that. More than ever I do wish I had a family who could help me with this. Because I am terrified. And I am just so overwhelmed with everything right now, I'm just not sure how to deal with it.


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I don't know what to say ecept ((((big hugs)))), and keep on talking to us.

xx


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I know we can’t give physical support, but the board is very good at emotional support. Try to post a little something every day so that we will know you are ok. I guess the part that worries me is you put this in the suicidal thread. Please keep talking to us. **hugs** Did I see on FB that you can’t get to the other doctor until September?


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*hugs* from me too!



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*hugs* thanks all. I'm doing alright right now. It's just that I have this crushing panicky depression right after the seizures. I know it will pass, but it doesn't make it any better. And Library Lady, yeah, I can't see the doc til September.


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Hey, knowing it will pass is one thing. It's a good thing. But even knowing it, you MUST continue to reach out to us when you feel like this. Thinking oh, this'll pass, I'm not gonna bother anyone is NOT an option Smile As I've learned, it's what we're here for. Really. If we're not here for this, then what's the point? *hugs* Take care, talk through it, keep us posted. Let us help, even if it's just listening and big ol' virtual HUGZ Smile And I'm glad you're feeling better now.


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Do you have skype? Could we set up a skype-chat-ring in different times zones that you can call and just have a chat with to feel better?

I'm really rubbish at helping at stuff like this as I have no idea what to do but I can try and distract you with ridiculousness when it happens.


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****HUGS**** Ion I'm so sorry to hear you're having such a terrible time. I'll echo SillyPunk's Skype offer. Also I check Tumblr pretty compulsively so if you ever want to message me on there then please do

We're all here for you though. Don't forget that.

*SQUEEZE*


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Yeah, I do have skype, my screenname for it should be up on the Skype thread here. And yeah, a lot of times especially during a seizure, even though I can't talk so well during it, I really just want someone to talk with.

*hugs again* and thanks, knowing I have some support does make me feel a lot better.


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I've just read this. I'm not much around, I can't offer much, but ***hugshugshugs***. You can always post and we will always be here.


 
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