oh, and NOW you're sitting here being antisocial, even though you've been told that she reacted badly because she felt like she was wearing the wrong dress to show off in front of family, even though she brought it down with her for that purpose. way to go.

and i know you're going to stay here even after writing that, even though you're deathly bored of online, because you don't want to have the conversation that will end with one or both of you in tears.

and she'll NEVER tell you herself that you don't deserve to feel like a complete shit, which means you'll keep feeling that forever. grow the fuck up, you stupid childish piece of crap.

quote:

Originally posted by Circus [TK]:
You are a worthless piece of shit.

You want to be so much more than you are, but the truth is you'll never get there because you're not capable of it. You're not smart, you're selfish, and you won't ever do anything important in life.

So stop telling yourself that you will because it's bullshit and you know it.

And by the way, the way you hope that people will like you and accept you? It's fucking pathetic. Fucking get over yourself and check out already.

Goddammit woman, turn that fine eye and mind on yourself for a change. What you are saying has no more place in reality than....well anything.(Yes, I'm sputtering)
Maybe you have to say this out loud to purge yourself, but don't let it turn into the evil anti-affirmation.
You are worth so much more than you ever let yourself believe and guess what? There are intelligent and wonderful people who see this and know you and love you.
Don't devalue them with with this thinking.

And yes love- I know when the demon voices start it's hard to ignore them. I do know.
*hugs tight*


Limer- that goes for you too. If you made a mistake, apologise, get it over with and don't let it paralyze you.

One of the best things I got from being an alcoholic was learning to make amends as quickly and completely as possible. It prevents so much dreck from hanging over you.

oh, BeeZ. don't get me wrong with my telling myself off. i apologised the instant i realised i'd hurt her. not good enough, of course, but i tried. i've apologised several times.

quote:

Originally posted by Limertilly:
oh, BeeZ. don't get me wrong with my telling myself off. i apologised the instant i realised i'd hurt her. not good enough, of course, but i tried. i've apologised several times.

*hugs*

Then all you can do is let go of the result. It'll be what it's going to be. Stop beating yourself up, it doesn't help anything..
*gentle *fwap*

at least this way i'll remember never to say anything to her ever again, though, that isn't wholly appreciative and nice.

or not. *sigh*

it's the fact that she will NEVER acknowledge that there might more than one reason for her reacting badly, and that i will be forced to always see myself as a complete shit over this one thing. even though she's been very personal with me today, and i didn't react to that in an over the top way, or even really at all.

i must be growing up.

life sucks.

*hugs for the postlicious Limertilly*
Oh yeah, and:
Well, that went well did n't it?

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ok. things are a bit sorted out, anyway. and i feel less like a complete shit. but i'm also rather glad she's gone home.

for goodness' sake, woman, you're sposed to enjoy time spent with her. how do you think you're going to handle a 10+ hour journey each way next month?

*hugs*
I hope you got some sleep in the end?
And I'm not sure there is a specific 'should' with regards to living , as long as you are happy with yourself.

You know, man, sometimes I wonder why you even try. I mean, you know what will happen. People will continue to disappoint you.

But the only reason they will is because you let them. Seriously, man, you need to focus on what you need to do now, and nothing beyond that. Continue to be friendly, even helpful to a point, but don't expect anything more than that. And remember your own boundaries. Because let's face it man, sometimes I think you forget them.

And one more thing: the converse is true. No matter what you do, nor what good intentions *you* have, you will always disappoint someone. And what you need to do is quite simple. As I already said, focus on what you need to do. No more or no less than that.

Simpson, Homer.

That is all.

*big hugs*
You know you are a wonderful, kind thoughtful person and I'm sure many other people on here think that. So don't beat yourself up - its very rare to accomplish everything you want to do in the way you originally intended.

Okay you stupid crybaby, have fun going back to class next week. Did you really have to cry through the whole thing? l.a.m.e. *kicks self*

OK self, you; you're a brat sometimes. I know you don't mean it, but you know what you've done after the fact. So, really, go apologize. IT won't kill you. I'm sure you'll feel better if you get it off your chest. So, stop moping around and say your sorry right now. *smack*

Weeble: i've cried all the way through a class before now. yoga class. never went back. so you still win.

Self: go to bed! christ! as if yesterday's excesses weren't enough!

Amy, you fight this, you hear me? It is so far from being the time. Don;t be all 'oh, I know it's coming so I'll just get out of the way'

And would it kill you to go for a run or something?

the answer to that is 'no'.

Oi! You! Go to bed. Now.
*slouches*
mmgrumble, bloody other part of brain, grumble.

*kick*

stop being a twat!

*kick*

and go put your stuff in the dishwasher

*kick*

and when I tell you we are going to town, we are going to town. You got stuff to get!

I can't go searching for any more journal articles, I just can't! I've already spent hours and hours each day for the last week looking for them. It's a short paper! Stick with the two you have in front of you and just write the darn thing!!! Gah!!!

*throws hands up into the air and walks away*

What did I tell you yesterday?! Sit still. Stop reading other articles. Write the damn paper.

Dear You:

"You'll be worthy?" Doesn't that just make you want to laugh at yourself? Especially with regards to High School and elementary of all places.

LOL.

Seriously, you really crack me up sometimes. This is the 21st century, bub, and you're a not a knight. And even if you were a knight the courtly love tradition or chivalry was mostly situated in literature, and not gritty dirty reality.

You don't need a piece of paper to tell you that you are equal to anyone. And if you believe that, that is a pretty sad thing indeed.

That said, I think we've had enough don't you think. This year. This year will be the final year. Remember that, and do what you must.

Zone, you're a cold misanthropic bastard with a venomous disdain for groupthink and the need to belong. Get used to being alone, stewing in your own bitter toxins.