You know how Death has one day where she's human, right? What if you woke up one day and realized you were one of the Endless, or one of them had somehow come to be you.
Psychologically, how would you handle this?
(this is a purely rhetorical question for research purposes thank you for your input)
I am about to answer the fuck out of your question.
One day when I woke up, well not necessarily that moment, but when I was younger(I was around four or five) I heard a voice in my head. (Yes, I'm crazy). Thing is, it wasn't an outside voice(only way I know how to explain the others. It was as if I was thinking in a different pitch. For quite awhile, I lived with this companion(her and I have a slightly different disposition) thinking it was normal. I sleepwalk frequently. Whenever I would sleepwalk, I would ask to be called either D, or Del. Then one day as I was sleepwalking, I opened my eyes. So it turns out I have multiple personality disorder and my alter is Delirium.
OH yeah...this all happened before I knew what Sandman was. And I have heterochromia. My eyes are blue and green. I have an intense compulsion to dye my hair colors, and often dress in a Del-ish manner. Also.. previous to my reading of Sandman, Del mentioned the other Endless. vaguely, but definitely. You know how she can be.
I guess as far as psychology goes this is interesting but also useless. Of course I'm crazy if I find out I'm Delirium.
I don't mean to sound pretentious by claiming this, I just believe it.
you make your own crazy, you know? the longer you read into your life as a disassociated person, the more real it becomes.
i've never met a person with DID who was not, to some degree, pleased with their disorder, happy to feel unique. sure, they'll tell you it sucks to have memory lapses or to do things they don't remember, but they love, love, love to talk about themselves.
they want everyone to know they have two distinct personalities. sometimes their username will include an allusion to this.
personality is always changing, evolving. a person with DID doesn't have multiple personalities, they are trapped in the cycle of very few.
we all have infinite personalities, the person with DID is limited to only a few - a self-imposed limitation, deep down.
I know I make my own crazy. Uhm but that's kind of the point. Most crazy people are happy with it. Even the ones who hear scary voices and feel tormented. I could get rid of my alters but I don't want to. And my acceptance gives me
Cocognition. And it's been happenin for awhile. I guess my double personality is just my personality. But I've talked to the del in my head and were separate people. I could have her leave but she's nice. So yeah. I am very happy with my self infliction.
Oh. And I don't get memory lapses. Ever. Or blackout. I'm completely co-cognitive with del. I'd never say it sucks to be this way. It's great.
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